It Doesn’t Matter

Firstly, as this is my very late, sort of round up from my time at Eroticon Live 2016, I should point out the title is not in reference to the conference. It absolutely does matter, it’s an amazing event and although I know it’s facing some changes I pretty sure it will continue to benefit future delegates in whatever new form it takes.
Now, I could fill this post with telling you about the amazing people I met while in Bristol but let’s face it I wouldn’t be telling you anything you don’t already know, plus I’d be bound to leave someone out and then feel awful so I’m not going to even try but what I will say is how nice everyone was and I do mean everyone. There were plenty of people I had previously spoken to on twitter but there were lots that I didn’t know before who were as equally welcoming which was such a relief because I have to admit on the Friday morning, I had a bit of a wobble.
Having never been to Eroticon before I had been incredibly excited that I was finally going and then on Friday morning doubt kicked in. Knowing some of the amazingly talented people I was about to spend the weekend with I felt like a fraud, I post things to my blog sporadically, often going months with out managing to post anything and when I do, its usually nowhere near the quality of my fellow bloggers. Thankfully , I pulled myself together and headed for the train because besides learning something in every session I attended over the weekend I learnt a valuable lesson. Even the bloggers you admire have doubts about their ability. Just like you, they don’t think they’re as good at certain things as their fellow bloggers and writers, they too still have things to learn and that’s the whole point. We can all learn something from the experiences of others, it may change our process in subtle ways or it may cause a big glaring light bulb to go on in a part of our brain we didn’t know was so dimly lit but either way we all come away with something.
So when Eroticon comes around again, in whatever new form it takes, I’ll be there. And this time the morning I head off won’t include a wobble because I, like everyone else am there to learn and my level of experience doesn’t matter.